Up and down

A couple of hours ago, I got a phone call from my-now-ex-boss, telling me that this is it. No more work.
So, first thing Monday morning, it's off to the unemployment office I'll be going... To receive a whopping 55% of my salary. I'm now back to being scared and nervous.
I cannot wait to see the next stage of my life. I really want to believe it's will be extraordinary but there are moments when it's a bit difficult. gulp!

Week 1

Today is the end of the first week of my career upheaval. My brain is still a bit fuzzy but for the first time, I haven't stressed about it at any point during the day. I had a kid's birthday party to go to, and even though I didn't really feel like going, it did me a world of good. Not only was I surrounded by genuinely caring people but getting there necessitated an hour long bike ride. All in all, it was very therapeutic. I believe that today was the first ray of hope I've felt in this ordeal. Trust in life and all will make sense in the end... It was just a bit hard for me to remember that at first. In the words of the famous Violeta Parra song, Gracias a la vida!

Ouch...

Last week we learned that the company we work for was going under and we would loose our jobs... We've given everything we had to our clients and now, they just want to work with the cheapest person possible. One of our clients even started shipping his work to India!! That is absolutely unacceptable. We do educational material and our clients get quite a bit of money from the government. How dare they not keep the work within our borders!!! Their behavior is socially immoral. If someone reads this and wants to know who I'm talking about, they're called Chenelière Éducation in Montréal.

Anyway... For one week now, I've been in a daze, incapable of concentrating on anything, or just engaging in basic thinking. My colleague friend and I have been going through a vast range of emotions, good and bad. Today, I finally feel like I'm more in control of my neurons and will be able to finally start looking for work. I absolutely have to avoid going on unemployment. Even though I've been paying it for many years (ever since I started working at 16), unemployment only pays 55% of the salary... I'm pretty sure I would have to sell my place on that salary. But I cannot think that way. Positive thinking right? I will find work, all this is for the better, in the end I will be happier etc.